Tonight

I am sad. But I feel blessed...
I am scared. But I know that it's not all about me.
I'm already fighting off deep low blows of loneliness.
And yet I know that I am not, nor ever will be, truly alone.
I feel so young - so unqualified - but I'm told to not let anyone despise my youth.
I'm aching to be with people who I miss so desperately...
And yet I'm delighted to have people to miss.
I am homesick for a country

that no longer feels like home...